Headed in, did a good warm up, felt mixed energy, I wanted to go heavier just because of habit, and a fear the light weights will throw me off, but not a huge deal. I've been thinking a fair bit lately, and I think I still need time off the back squat, I'll do a couple weeks of work in May, just to see where I'm at and probably just squat 500 at the meet in May, I should... I say should, because I've gotta force myself to relax... but I should work on my bench and deadlift, I've heavily neglected those lifts because I've been too banged up to practice bench very well, I've never practiced it often enough, 3x a week is amazing for form, and I just had this weird thought in my head I was a bad bencher... I re worked my form a few times, and now I don't feel that way. I got the same thought with my deadlift, I got this thought in my head that I was a bad deadlifter because I could never keep a flat back, and I thought it must have been my long torso, basically used my proportions as an excuse as everyone is just so desperate to slam people with. I've never understood why they have to phrase it like that. The term just making excuses gets thrown around a ton, and I think it's out of date. I've got 15 kids on my team, and none of them make excuses, they'll tell me their issue, then continue to work their ass off. They'll miss a big lift, and tell me why they thought they missed it, I think the old guard calls that an excuse... What a lot of people don't understand, is young peope these days are going 100mph, and really just want some positive feedback, and want criticism in a positive way.
I've found a lot of my coaches have tended towards the negative side over the years, and I'd ask a trusted business friend, why is it so horrible to get the feedback I want? instead of just hearing about all the things I did wrong, that I'm well aware of. I was actually considered closed minded because of this, but I honestly feel I was just ahead of the game. Coaches felt I didn't want to be coached, I just didn't want to hear negative coaching, I've always been a strong leader, and I've always been able to pick people that could work for me in 5 minutes, this year I had a let down in business... but I just couldn't take the stress anymore... frustrating, but it's over.
I personally find it's the coaches responsibility to guide the student, and to make it fun, and to make their feedback easy to hear, as well as exciting to hear. I've personally hear a ton of... "you're not doing it right. That is all." ... it got to the point, where if all the person could say was what I was doing wrong, and if they didn't have guidance or a suggestion on how to fix it, I'd get pretty pissed. If it makes sense to you, just to walk around looking for mistakes... and that's all you've got...then stay the hell away from me.
Anyhew, I did train tonite, but light.
warm up
-lots of reps on the sitting hip machines, 1 leg deadlifts, full paul warm up, body weight squats
Front squat with chains
bar, 95,135,185 for 4 sets of 3
Sumo
225 4 sets of 3, 315 1x3
- wasn't in any pain, but still didn't have the desire, so I'll keep doing this until i want it again.
I'm going to focus on deadlifts over my front squat for a while, and just focus on doubles with 315. I'm going to add a day each week for a bit. I got the idea in my head that I was a bad deadlifter, but now I'm starting to feel like I probably couldn't deadlift 900 pounds, but I believe if I get as strong as I can be, I'll pull 800... and that's world class. since I started driving with my legs more, I know I'll get 600 soon, I might even get it in the gym, I'm going to spend a few weeks adding weight to my triples from the floor, see where I can get, then go back down to 5 plates, and do 5 sets of 4, then 5 sets of 5 the following week, then I'll probably be pretty close to the meet. I think I'll do some singles with chains, around 80% one day, and just focus on speed after grinding off the floor, and I think the 3rd day will be 70% standing on blocks, hmm... I may not have enough time for building volume. I'm just going to pull a lot before the push pull, and bench a lot, 3x a week each, and see what happens.
Come summer, I think I'm just going to stay away from competition, and just get jacked maybe hire someone to coach me to a bodybuilding show, and maybe do some strongman. Do curls and leg press, keep benching a lot, train my back harder, which I should start doing pretty soon, I have no lats, I think I'm going to push the volume up to 100 reps of pull downs after benching, maybe more. Not going back to pull ups any time soon, I'm just not there to be able to do them the right way, and I don't want to strain my arms, after a few years of constant pain, training without brachialis pain is really nice. I'm sitting around 240 right now, and I think I can hold onto it and get leaner, and just switch carbs to beans and patotos and some gluten free bread, and keep the bcaas high, and I think I can hold 240 in a healthy, lean fashion. I'd rather not get under 200 for a bodybuilding show, but afterwards, I'd get to 250+ I bet and could be what I need to get to that weight in a healthy way. The high volume training has helped a lot on bench, I'd like to be able to get more volume on my lower body and back as well.
The constant pain from training really lent to the anxiety I was getting, and I used to be able to just push it down, but I don't like that anymore, so I'll accept some knee/hip pain to squat big, but that's it. Willie told me he just wants to be pain free, and I'm going to start figuring that one out.
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