dark times upon us

Went  in feeling drained, and got more of the same once I was there. I've been physically over trained lots of times, but I could generally just force my way through it until I adjusted, this time I just want to lay down and take a nap as I unrack a squat, weights feel extremely heavy, and my desire is low.

I'm going to bounce back, and I see a positive here, that I was able to take things further than ever before, and once I recover, I'll just be that much stronger. Having to wait is frustrating, but the payoff will be there. When the weights I was handling tonite feel like 500, I have no idea how I'll get that on my back again, but I know I will. I'll get a lot more on there soon, maybe not for May, but maybe for then too. I'm still going to focus on my upper body in general, and my deadlift for a while, just to fill out, and get my body stronger in the way I can't with a squat. I've always planned all my training around the squat, and now I feel like it's time to focus on my deadlift, and more my bench.

I wonder if the 3x a week deadlift is the cuplrit, I never went over 80%, but it's still a lot of deadlifting. I don't think it is, but not something I'm turning a blind eye to either.

I have things in the real world that could for sure be the cause, but I've had lots of brutal stuff come up only to train great, so I'm not focusing on that too much. I think the only thing to do is just some work, keep the intensity and volume low, and give it time, it might even be another week. I know this will sort itself out soon, and if after a couple weeks I still feel like shit, I'll try another couple changes, but it will sort itself out, I'm positive.

Squat with chains
365 x1 x 5 singles
-these felt heavy, but I never had to try to lift the weight, just had to force myself to do it. 5 singles around 80% is some work, and I think within a few more training sessions, I'll have to force myself to not go higher.

50 face pulls
50 hyper extensions

going to keep up the light weight high reps on bench tomorrow, not looking forward to having to force myself to do the work, but when the dark times hit, you just sorta keep going, or you stop... and the only problem with stopping... is stopping.