My post before, was just something to get off my chest... I'm really not like that all the time, but I bottled that one up for a long time, and it built up until I kinda snapped. I've had a very difficult last few years, I've been working 80 hour weeks for 7 years, I've been so focused on chasing perfection for the wrong reasons, and I knew what I was doing was wrong, I knew I should treat myself better, I lost my health a couple of times, then I just had to focus on that to the point where even when I was eating food at my worst, it was 90% of the populations best... then I balanced it.
My dad is just a great man. Sincerely, He built a company from nothing to something he would sell for about 10 million dollars, and everyone hated him for it like you can't believe. He'd get a nice car, and people would just talk trash about him like you can't believe. He sponsored more sports teams in my hometown than I could tell you about, He would never tell you, but anyone who every asked him for anything he would give them money for whatever they need. I've never asked him, because it was just something we'd take for granted, that's what you do, you give back every single chance you get with no expectation of a return, and no matter what someone asked of you, if it was in your power you did it. I bet he put at least 10 grand into the town, but honestly, I'm serious, I bet it's more like 100k in his lifetime. He gave all of his brothers jobs and paid them as best he could without giving them so much the other guys might have them. His brothers were just balls deep workers, accountable to themselves like hell, but they deifnitely had different opinions on how things were supposed to be done, in a general sense.
Friday night the guys always had ice time, and dad would generally pay a big portion or always make a point of bringing a case of beer. firday at work dad grabbed a case of beer, every baseball game dad had a case of beer, and he just loved haging out after the game. The fathers on all my sports teams generally became his best friends, the guy is that wide open. To be totally honest, I was jealous of my father like crazy, I just hated him for how much people loved him. I always felt like everyone hated me. I think that my Dad felt like that until he lost everything, he was always trying to please everyone, and it tore his marriage apart to do it.
Nortel crashed, and so many companies ran and tried to declare bankruptcy, I'm not really sure how they handled it, but it wasn't pretty. Dad saw this coming, and he went down with the fucking ship. He drove that company into the ground, and just destroyed himself to do it, and took more heat on himself than I can share on the internet,.. and what no one understands, is he just couldn't let his family down. He just did anything he could to get money to keep paying his guys, and if he spent 5 bucks, everyone of them was ready to hang him for it as the layoffs started. So many rumours went around about the man, it was retarded. And there's his family, just hating him for it. That's what we learned at school, to be terrified of what people thought about us. I think that's what a lot of people learn at school. With social media, now it's even worse, or it just happens a lot faster and sooner.
I coach a young team, and I see this like you can't believe. They're terrified to let me down, I don't accept money, I give away respect. They want this more than you can believe, I know it's true, because that's what I wanted like you can't believe, and just could never get.
My cousin is my hero, I've idolized him since the 2nd grade. He was always the best ahtlete, the guy every girl liked, the one everyone respected, no matter what your age, a hard worker like you can't believe, and always had a job. He came by to clear brush when I was like 14 and I was too nervous to go out to help, I felt like he'd get less money because I was helping, and he probably thoughts I was retarded for not coming out. He was one of those guys, the one that's always known exactly what he wants and just goes and fucking gets it.
That's who I surrounded myself with, the best guys I could find, the ones that just do not forgive weakness in themselves ever, that just have to do it no matter what came up. My laundry list of mentors all have that quality. My father has this quality. So I tried to develop it too, but it was just too much, I was just too negative a guy, it just about killed me to be that obsessed for that long.
I couldn't just stop, so I just focused on one things at a time, while doing everything else 90%... but it's 10% of your training that gives 90% of your results, and that's the 10% I was missing, I tried to take shortcuts wherever I could find them, and this is in life in general. I always felt like no one could understand, because I just couldn't understand it.
I just always want to help out, and generally would get me into trouble because I was just overzealous, not something I get into on the internet, but I've seen it come up a lot. And, I was so scared of disapointing my father, that I just couldn't ask for help.
My friends I was wide open with, what friends I had working 7 days a week almost year round. It just didn't matter, that's what Willie Albert and Jay Nera are like, they say whatever are on their minds no matter what. For a guy always trying to please a father, this is just a recipe for disaster when you're around people who go 100% at powerlifting, and destroy themselves for every percent they can go past 100%... I'm not joking, that's what it's like training with just about everyone I train with. All the guys think I'm pretty hardcore, I used to be a wuss, and I was way more hardcore than I am now. So then I decided to train with Paul Vaillancourt, who gives 100% in every single aspect of his life, everything, right down to his toes. I'm not joking. Paul is just more positive in general than I am, the guy can tolerate just about anything, and I know because he tolerated me for so long.
I had to tone shit DOWN, I wanted respect that bad... but just from being a really negative thinker, i never ever got it. I see a quality in one of my guys I used to have, where I'd rely on anything, just do to my belief that there was something wrong with me, it's a weird belief if you ever become aware of it, you start seeing how it had caused problems, but you can actually take stock of where you were at. It's just not everyone really knows to do that. It took a few months of just constant audio books to figure that one out, thank you visalus. I get so many business audio books because of them it's retarded.
They basically just give people the power to change their lives no matter what your situation, if you have questions ask, but I'm not really going to get into it unless you do. But basically, the most amazing person I've ever met, is just sort of normal in this company. I'm not joking, they take carring about people, and make it like Paul Vaillancourt on his way to a training session. Man on a fucking mission, failure not an option, and if failure happens, you pound that shit out of yourself right that fucking second..
These people just bring you up man, they make being aware of something about that isn't right, because every single person is doing that same thing to themselves, and handling each aspect until they can just love everyone. I'm not joking for a second.
It's been an amazing experience to say the least. I feel a little retarded sometimes, but then I think about who Matt Britt looks up to, and that's Ryan Blair, Nick Sarnicola, and Blake Mallen, and those guys take professional "give a shit" to the next level man. Like, sure, I'll try to aim to be like those guys... if you say so, if that's supposed to be the level, i'm cool with that. I've gotta get to Matt Britts leve first, but that's how I reinforce it. This kind of stuff just makes it easy. And, I haevn't done much with promoting, I've just been nuts with other things, really, it's how I used to roll, but anyways, i get to ask that guy questions... and he almost always replies.
Do you have any idea how valuable that is? there are just so many mentors, and all you have to do is ask all the time.. Do you understand how valuable that is? I'm angling my life to really get fired up with Visalus, and i get high high level business advice on tap, and I just promote. I can use this knowledge for anything, I'm gonig to try to open a gym, and I bet most people will want to be promoters as they could just live to train, and live to live by caring about ppl.
Sorry, call Visalus whatever you want, but that's my dream come true.. and it's going to take time to get it there. But when I do, I'll likely be an Ambassador, and that wouldn't be too bad, I've just gotta develop young people every step of the way. That's how you build a real team. I'm not saying they have to do it now, but I'm just going to keep growing my knowledge base, while giving viaslus 2 hours a day, and pay the bills from 9-5 and maybe lose a little sleep for a few months, but then be on "loving life street."
They talk about how you have to be urgent, you do, I've just got other priorities right this second, but my driver in those, is to get to what I want to love.
I was blowing off steam before, things got bad, I hit bottom hard, but the harder you hit the bottom, the faster you come up. You know what? yes thank you, I'll use that momentum, thank you very much.
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