So, I worked myself into mental, physical and emotional exhaustion, and hit brunout for like the millionth time, I developed fibromyalgia like symptoms because of it, and I can guarantee I could have been disgnosed with it when I was doing Willie Alberts max on squats everyday program. Wiki it... that's what it feels to either hit a 500 single, or do 10 singles with 405 every single day.. that shit hurts, but it also made my posture amazing.
I hit bottom so hard, that I had a nervous breakdown, I was telling my sister weeks before how I wasn't sure how much longer I could hang on with all the stress that was on my plate, and it was a lot. My painting business this year sucked, I wasn't up for the challenge, and I chose shitty leadership and trained shitty employees when I knew better. I've got guys running around screaming at the top of their lungs how they should be in charge of my team, and telling me how they never make mistakes, and if they ever failed it was politics... yeah, I keep a square mile from that unacountable loser. I can't stand people that can't take accountability for themselves, people you can aplogize to, but are just too pathetic to accept it. Small people.
I got locked away from everything I cared about, and I had no freedom. This is a mindfuck like you can't believe. I didn't have to be in ass rape jail to lose my freedom, it fucking sucks, and don't ever comment on it unless you've had your rights and freedom taken away. This taught me fear like you can't believe, I will always be working to keep my freedom from now on.
Then I had a Dr, I would write and write to everyday, telling him how I was feeling, telling him my story, who wouldn't read anything I wrote, would chat for 15 minutes to me, then talk about medications... and as soon as I could, I just got the fuck out... sorry, but I was surrounded by 41 sincerely crazy people, that place makes you scared and paranoid, and it was a prison of the mind. Yeah, I bailed right the fuck out, you would too, trust me. I had the choice to let down my family and trust this tool box, or help my family, and see this guy for what he was, someone with a title, who made excuses. I've seen enough of those to know when someone is real, and when someone is a loser.
So now, I'm sitting here, wondering why the hell I keep doing all this crappy stuff, surrounding myself with losers with dumb haircuts, and making poor choices, so I figure why not just dive right in with Visalus, and just live the life of my dreams. I've been broke forever, I've made piles of money, then when i wasn't watching had a business partner drain my bank account to buy some stupid car she didn't need, and use my money to go on vacations and have getaways with secret boyfriends, when I was sitting at home working.... that was what success was to me, just having someone stomp on you.
So why not? all I have to do is enjoy living and it should happen. and I'm looking for you, if you're reading this, you likely have an open enough mind to be someone I'd enjoy working with, the first 6-10 people I bring on are people I want to work with, or I'm not bringing them on. My friend, brought on the most negative promoter I've ever seen, who begged us for help, then when we tried she ran away and made us into the bad guys... I learned a hard lesson there, one I know very well, that the best intentions can cause the greatest harm. so I'm just bringing on people I like, end of story.
Here's the deal, I'm looking to become Matt Britt, what that means is I'm going to make a fuck load of cash, but nothing crazy, Matt has Jason O'toole under him and he make a couple million a year doing this... Matt Britt is just a normal guy with a beard and a hot girlfriend... I can be Matt Britt, easy. He speaks very well, so do I. He's a strong leader, and I keep a team of 12ish guys together with nothing but my presence and my voice, and everyone follows my lead because I am a servant leader. Google it. I'm Matt Britt in action fuck.
Just don't give me shit about the beard I grew, I don't want to become Britt that bad, notice I have better hair, but I grew it in honor of my friend Darshan, and we speak about our beards quite frequently. His is magnificent, but I wear mine as a tribute to another culture, and to remind me, we only think this way in North America... and I look damn good in it too.
What do I need from you? I just need you to want to live life, be healthy and prosperous
LIFE- just enjoy what you're doing, and not do the things you "should", I want you to want it... it should be "I want this"... if it's not that, rethink your plan.
HEALTH- I've lost my health a few times now, it's because I've lost it can I truly appreciate it. Maybe you haven't lost your health, but I can take you to places where you'll love your new level of health, I have various ways to do this, and I'll help you find the one for you.
Prosperity - whenever people think about this one they immediately go negative, so think about it like this... what if money wasn't a factor, what would u do? I guarantee this is possible, and i'll show you how to make whatever amount of money you want, whether it's 1k a month, or a 100k a month, I can show you how, the rest is up to you.
I'm going to be getting in touch with everyone I know, if you see me calling, and you don't want to talk, just tell me no, I won't be offended, really. but if you are interested, then I'll show you where to go, I won't tell you to do anything, it's all on you and your choice, if you ask for my opinion I'll give it to you, but won't freak out if you don't follow it, but be prepared to be challanged, and prepare to hear it like it is.
I recently lost the first member of my powerlifting team, because that younger man couldn't face reality, so he ran... it's very sad to me, but I trust he'll come around once he grows up, or he'll come around and i'll guide him to being a young man.
Either way, I'm pumped, might not call you tonite, I've gotta train at 6, then I'm taking a hip hop class at 830 tonite, I've always wanted to learn how to dance, and my next post will be about all the things I plan to do if you chose to support me. Remember, give first, then be ready to receive, and I'm completely ready to give myself to you completely, and I know if I do it right, I'll get it all back in exactly the way I choose to receive.
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